Off the Wagon
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006So I keep falling off the wagon. I can’t seem to stay on any diet for long. I think it is stress. I have high bills and depression to go along with it. See I use to work in the tech field and can’t seem to find employment there, so I work in jobs paying half that much. Such is life. I made the mistake of taking on too much debt. Folks, even with six months of savings, money does run out when your bills are about equal to your pay.
No wonder I can not focus. The more stressed out I get, the more I eat and the less I exercise. As a matter of fact, stress seems to make me more hungry. I am not blaming anyone else but myself. I think I have been ignoring this problem for some time now. It is time for me to learn how to manage stress besides eating, no matter what the problem is. At times, I think the stress has gone away, then it comes back again. I have got to manage this or my weight is going to continue to rise and I will never defeat PCOS. I know there is no cure for PCOS, but there is a way to control it….Through eating right, supplements, excercise and support.
I have gained 15 pounds in two months due to stress and overeating. I can’t even face my family now, for I am afraid they will look down on me. I know they say cortisol increases with stress so that doesn’t help anything. Cortisol they say, aggravates insulin resistance. I guess I have no choice other than to treat my body right no matter how depressed I feel. This is the most difficult thing for me to do now. I hate to admit defeat, but I must be real. It is hard to exercise and eat right when I am depressed. THe ironic thing is that one way to help manage depression is to get of my a$$ and go to the darn gym.
Now that I have admitted I have a problem, the next step is to find a support group.
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